Well, my partner in crime is off in Australia on her own. Best of luck Taylor! Miss ya, but we all have to move forward in life and have fulfilling experiences.
The New Me
I’ve been doing a lot of self exploration lately, or maybe those are the wrong words. I feel like I found myself without really looking. Maybe I gave up, because it was like a slap in the face, or an awakening. For a while, I didn’t think I knew who I was, and this upset me very much. But now, I have a better understanding. My journey will never be over; it’s just beginning. But I have come a long way, and I feel like I have so much more confidence in myself. Now I know what the saying “you can’t be with someone else fully until you can be with yourself”. It makes so much sense. Which is why I had to take a break from an amazing man. He makes me happy, but I was at a point where I knew I couldn’t make him happy. Maybe because I couldn’t make myself happy? A lot of reasons were the driving force. But my self discovery is beginning to be a great thing. I feel like I have this incredible ability to look at my life from the outside in (sometimes). I can tell myself I’m just going through phases, or “this is normal”, or “it will work out”. I don’t mean I’m good at getting through tough situations and coaching myself, anyone can do that to a certain extent, but I understand myself and my life, and I appreciate everything I have. I am so happy I have grown to realize I am so lucky to have this life. I never though I would be envied, or admired. But now I’m thinking, why the hell not? I’m living the dream, and it’s happening now.